Taylor Swift - Back To December

I am not your typical Taylor Swift fan but I am proud to say I am a Swifty. I sold or discarded most everything I owned in 2012 and moved to another state, 600 miles from where I had lived my entire life. While driving south, unsure of where I was going or how I would survive, I heard "Back to December" on the radio and this is how it changed my life. I wasn't going through a breakup or anything like that however something about her voice and the song composition really stuck. I remember thinking how great it was and why I had never heard it before. In fact I had only heard a few of her songs and while I liked them, she wasn't my favorite. I drove for 4 days aimlessly, stopping along the way to sleep at rest areas, cheap motels and exploring a few tourist areas. A friend of mine had a friend who had a vacant house in the upstate of South Carolina. I made arrangements to stay there temporarily until I decided what I would eventually do. I found a job 3 weeks later with very long hours and decided to stay in the upstate. I had nothing but clothes, a air mattress and a portable radio. I found myself constantly changing the radio and trying to find Taylor songs. RED was about to be released and a few of her songs were being played. I have seen live in concert The Rolling Stones 2x, The Who 2x, and dozens of others but none of them compare to just watching her videos. I would love to see her in person but I would have to rent a few teens, so people didn't think I was a perv. I had a few items including my computer in storage back in my home state. 3 months after I settled here, I finally traveled back to Maryland and brought everything I owned to SC. My computer was the first thing I hooked up and about a month later I had cable and internet installed. "RED" was released on my birthday and it was the greatest present I could have ever received. I started watching "YouTube" videos of Taylor and saw performances from her early days and from the Fearless & Speak Now tours. I have never been the emotional type but watching her live concert videos, I was moved to the point of tears. Watching her hug fans or the way she performed on stage made me smile and cry at the same time. I have been listening to her and watching videos for a year and a half now. I have watched the same videos hundreds of times and I still find myself smiling from ear to ear. I counted the days until she started the RED tour and every night after working 12 hours, exhausted and depressed I would watch her performances from whatever concert she had the night before.I cannot watch her award wins, speeches and introduction packages without crying because I am so proud of her and what she has accomplished. The Pinnacle award ceremony and her performance of RED on the CMA's makes me cry every time I watch, it which has been approximately 100 times. I have heard Taylor say many times that when she was young and had a bad day she knew it would be alright because she could write a song and felt better. I guess what I am trying to say is When I'm having a bad day or a good day but still lonely and depressed, I look forward to being able to watch or listen to her music. I have 7 CD's in my truck and all seven are filled with Taylor. I have different versions of the same songs and she is all I listen to all the time. I can't explain why or what possessed me to become such a "Swifty". I am so proud of her and what she stands for that it has given me hope that someday for me I will realize that "Everything Has Changed".